I love words. They fascinate me from their multi-definitions to their many synonyms. I’m addicted to the thrill of learning new ones, and the satisfaction of gaining a deeper understanding of familiar ones. Diving into rabbit hole explorations, I find connections that often lead to an expanded understanding of myself.

I don’t deny that this is a ‘word nerd’ post, and I probably wouldn’t have shared it with you if fear hadn’t popped up again in one of its devious disguises.  Fear is the opposite of courage, curiosity, confidence, faith, joy and love. It can be our worst enemy, stealthy and pervasive, used by us and against us. It stunts us and stops us from living our best life. It’s important for us to recognize it, decide whether it enables us or if it should be dropped it like a hot coal into the fuckit bucket.

The rabbit hole of i-o-r-i-t-y became yet another illuminating lesson demonstrating how I can learn to recognize fear. During some recent writing I found myself ruminating about the word inferiority. I wondered if ‘in fear’ and the beginning of the word inferiority, ‘infer’ had anything in common and it turns out they do.

According to a paper published on the National Library of Medicine website, ‘People with high inferiority feelings are afraid to interact with others for fear of rejection (Shim et al., 2013).’ So yes, fear is involved in inferiority and somehow knowing that was oddly satisfying. I’m not sure why, maybe I felt a little smug because what I suspected turned out to be true or that somehow I had seen something others hadn’t. Later, in conversation with Soul, I would learn why it was important for me.

During the above exploration it came to light that there is only a dozen or so words in the English language that end with the letters i-o-r-i-t-y.  Though these letters don’t create a word in and of themselves, most of the definitions for the words ending in those letters, are described as ‘the state of being, quality, fact or condition of something’. That made sense, as according to popular dictionaries, Inferiority means; of less importance or value, of a low or lower degree, of poor quality, the state of not being good, or not as good as someone or something else…you get the picture.

Inferiority is not a word I like to use, in fact it’s a word I avoid because of its low vibration, heaviness, and negative connotation. It is fear wrapped up in another cunning costume.  It represents comparison and judgment to me, which goes against my inclusive and accepting beliefs.

So how did all of this i-o-r-i-t-y exploration expand me as a human, help me to understand myself better? My definition of Inferiority, is now “In fear being” or simply ‘being in fear.’ So, anytime I find reason to think that I’m not capable of something (anything), I now recognize that as ‘being in fear’.

For example, if I drop into low vibrational thinking like ‘Who am I to think I could write a bestselling book, or be a senior athlete or create beautiful art or travel to 100 countries?’ That is just me, being in fear. There are no reasons that I couldn’t accomplish any one of those dreams.

AND I JUST WILL NOT HAVE IT! I will no longer, automatically, believe in a fear and let it knock my feet out from under me. It has taken more than six decades in this lifetime to understand how fear, in its many mutations, whether barely perceptible or freaking nuclear explosive, has disabled me from taking steps towards my dreams.

Fear is part of all of us and it can enable us, help keep us safe, but it should never rule us (I fear the pain of getting burned, so I don’t put my hand on a hot stove). I see how mastering it takes observation and exploration.

Context – I have written my first children’s book, but struggled for a week over the last couple of sentences of the book…

[Me]       Soul, is the fact that I haven’t finished the book a product of a low self-worth frequency? Am I afraid of finishing it because the next step would be sending it out into the world and I’m nervous about others judging it?

[Soul]    You are overcoming it

[Me]       Dammit! When I think it’s gone, or that I’ve dealt with it, it pops up again!

[Soul]    But you must see that you now recognize it. This is such progress. Transmute those feelings to love. Do not despair. You have moved forward greatly on this and when you decide to vanquish it, it will be gone. There is a tendency for humans to hold onto this energy due to their programming, but you can let it go. If it is more deeply ingrained in you it may take several attempts, but you can heal yourself and generations past and forward.

[Me]       I don’t want generations, especially future generations to have to deal with this. I want to heal it.

[Soul]    They will deal with it to a degree, but you can ease that by transmuting it to love and then it will not be rooted as deeply for them. You can sever the energy of a number of past generations.

[Me]       I break contract with the fear of being judged and judging of myself. In all realms of time and space, in all densities and dimensions, in all realities and frequency bands. I break it now!

[Soul]    Good for you! Feel your energy lifting. You have given the fears over to me to be transmuted to love. Yes, now love will flow to the collective consciousness rather than fear. This is why you came to earth at this time, to bring love to mass consciousness, to help raise the frequency of the planet earth, for all its beings, including yourself.

We all need to become familiar with the many faces of fear. Explore your feelings and decide whether that feeling enables or disables you on the path to your desires. Choose to master fear, not be mastered by it.

Till next time, peace and joy,

C

P.S. The children’s book is completed and being sent to an illustrator 😊